Day15 Mar25

I woke up in the midnight because of the moist and the weed in the air of Paul's flat. I didn't know I should have the blanket covered over my head to make me warmer, or should pull it away so that I don't have to smell the weed.

I must have struggled for a while and slept again. When I woke up again it was 7 something and I had a dream of leaving Paul's house because of insomnia and met loads of weird people who attempted to harm me and I took the train but the train went to God-knows-where.

And Paul's steps woke me up.

Paul made me coffee and I had some fruit and cookies as breakfast. We sat there till about 10 and walked back to the shop.

It's indeed the first time I feel so comfortable with a male at his home as a friend. A mutual friend. But this morning reminds me of many mornings I have been in many other's places, feeling both numb and weird, sometimes guilty. There should be love too.

I went back to Trevor's house and had a shower. I was very tired indeed because it was a sleepless night. I told him about my house hunting. I guess we all agree having somewhere I can shut myself in and completely block the world is the first thing to do, more important than a job.

I have a few paintings which I really want to do now. I think that is one of the solution to end the nightmares every night.

I went to HSBC and finally activated my account after fighting on the net and telephone. I gotta input a pin number that is only known by me but I don't know. Anyway the bank sorted out for me. I guess when it was earlier times the service wouldn't be that good: the HSBC UK has just laid off 12000 people today.

It's the worst of times anyway.

I went to the bookshop and tested my debit card. I bought a pile of cards and wrote one to my parents. It's much easier to find books I want to read here than in Hong Kong. The literature, the poetry, the plays, which no HongKongers would read. Then I met Sandy. We went to the TATE for Glenn Brown and William Blake.

The Glenn Brown one was quite interesting I must say. He uses loads and loads of colors while all his paintings were flat like photos. I couldn't believe it

I walked Sandy to the Paradise Street to catch a bus but she fell down when she was trying to run. I am a bit worried but hope she could be alright.

I walked around and finally visited the Bluecoat. The Bluecoat is a interesting heritage.

I have eventually solved my bank acc today.

I don't know how far I can walk.